YoU hAvE bEeN tAgGeD1!1!1!

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1: I listen to Jessica Simpson when I go to bed
2: I love hip-hop because I can dance dirrty to it
3: I can deep-throat a popsicle to the stick
4: I've licked my dirty underwear during school
5: I get off to racing camels in french class
6: When I make out with guys, I like to bite their lips.

You've been tagged!

Ok, well, I got this E-Mail from my friend Jamie(yet another friend who lives far away from me ><, and it describes your personality by the month you were born in, and mine describes me really well, and Spencer's is right on target(Everyone, except silma885 since he just added me^^, should know who Spencer is by now). Since ours were so accurate, I think you should see what your month says about you. (I'm June and Spencer's February if anyone wanted to know)

Ignore the "send in 5 minutes" stuff...liek i said, it was an E-Mail...


>----------JANUARY-------------------
>Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. A fighter.send this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.
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>----------FEBRUARY--------------------
>Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. send this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.
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>-----------------MARCH--------------------
>Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.If you send this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
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>------------------APRIL-------------------
>Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains. If you send this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themself and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
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>-----------------MAY-----------------
>Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you send this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.
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>------------JUNE-------------
>You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become oneof your closest friends, if you send this in 5 minutes.
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>----------------JULY--------------
>Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.send this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days
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>------------AUGUST---------------
>outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. LOVES to be LOVED. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain". caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.
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>------------SEPTEMBER---------------
>Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
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>---------------OCTOBER-------------------
>Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.
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>---------------NOVEMBER--------------------
>Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest women are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost in 5 mins & you will excell in a major event coming up sometime this month.
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>---------------DECEMBER---------------
>This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. A hott new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in the next 5 mins

I ahd a dream last night. It was one of my overly realistic dreams, like it was real life(and half the time those come true). I remember I told Spencer about situations where the dreams came true and he kissed me and said I was psychic, and he asked me if I could read his fortune, and I did a bogus plam reading(>< but that's beside the point. Anyway, this dream has really shaken me. It was about Spencer, and I can still feel the dream....

I woke up around 6:30, liek I do every morning. I don't really remember what i was wearing, but I know it wasn't anyhting special. I got on the bus, and I went to school, and everything seemed normal. I have second hour, Geometry, with Spencer(and also band, but that's not important). Well, they always do announcments in second hour, and I noticed that Spencer was late getting to class, and he gave me a really weird look. It was sad(like every look he gives me), but it had familiar hints of longing and of secret agendas. Well, as soon as he sat down, the anouncments started, and he got this really worried expression, like he'd done somehtign he regretted, but it was too late to take back. The announcments were as dull as ever, going over varsity sports, senior stuff, the wworks, and when they got to the names, there was a relativly small list, but at the end, they said that they wanted me at the office at the end of the hour. Of course I was confused, I never got called down to the office. Well, Geometry seemed to drag on forever, which was new for me because I'm a huge geek(I get all A's, you know the type) and I like math, so class normally goes by fast. Even though I was having fun with Evan( another all A geek. Our future Valedictorian), working on the homework, I could feel Spencer's presnce(if you wanna call it that) against my back. I can always feel him, but today his aura was especially noticable. Well, when the bell finally rang, I gathered my stuff, shoved it in my bag, and went down the Junior hall to the office and my locker. For a brief moment, I could have swore that Spencer was following me, but when I turned around, I didn't see him(and his hair makes him easy to spot), so I turned back to my way. The whole way to my locker, I could swear he was following me, and when I stopped by the office(I was alone suprisingly), I thought I had seen him again. I knew my pathetic mind was just playing tricks on me. I turned and opened the office door, and on the shelf, there was a rose with a small note by it. I dismissed this at first because I neevr got anything like flowers, and when I had asked what they ahd needed me for, the lady motioned towards the flower. I picked it up gently, greatly confused by it. Walking out the office door, I headed down the middle hallway, my hands shaking as I opened the note, I turned into the Sophmore hall(Spencer's hall) and I read the note:

Alexi,
I'm so sorry about everything. I'm sorry I lied to you, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry about everything. I wish I could take it all back, but I know that I can't. I just want to be with you again, to hold you again. At first, I convinced myself that I was fine without you, that it wasn't a big deal and thta it didn't matter. But it was a big deal, and it will always matter. I know that this is a lot, but If you can find it in your heart, will you forgive me? I haven't told you this yet, but I think I love you, and I just wanted you to know that...
~Spencer

I was about 2/3 down the hall(Right by the point where he and his frineds hang out), and I started crying as I finished the letter. I had never felt more loved at that point. I knew I could forgive him, I could never not forgive him. And as everything was going through my head, I felt strong arms wrap around my waist from behind and hold me tightly. "I'm so sorry." was all he said, and I could feel his tears on my shoulder...


Wow, that was a really bad portration of ym dream, but its good enough...I wish it would be one of the few thta come true....

I was listening to My Jimmy Eat world CD,a nd normally I dont pay much atention, but I focused on the lyrics to "Drugs or ME", and I almost started crying. It hits home so well....

"Drugs Or Me"

Stay with me
You're the one I need
You make the hardest things
Seem easy

Keep my heart
Somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sunshine slows
Always keep me close

If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But i cant tell you from the drugs

Don't let go
Well dig a great big hole
Down an endless hole
We'll both go

You're so blind!
You can't save me this time
Hope comes from inside
And I feel so low tonight

If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

I wish you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry you swear it you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

(Ohhhh)
(Ohhhh)

(take me) I need your help
(so far away) To pull me up take the wheel
(take me) Out from me
(so far away) Out from me

(Take me) If only you could see (I need your help)
(So far away) The stranger next to me (To pull me up take the pain)
(Take me) You promise you promise that you're done (Out from me)
(So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)

(Take me) I wish that you could see (I need your help)
(So far away) This face in front of me (To pull me up take the wheel)
(Take me) You're sorry you swear it you're done (Out from me)
(So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)

Keep my heart
somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sunshine slows
always keep me close

Wow, I love that line so much, I've been using it a lot lately. This is my first time using this thing, but I need to let everyone know about my revelation...

I was talking to Carly the other night on the computer, and something she said made me think about Spencer. I was starting to think, and I realized that no matter what other's say, you can truely love more then one person. I'm not saying at the same time, but at different points in my life. And if Spencer isn't the right guy for me, I'm not going to mourn my lost love anymore, I'm going to pray for the day I find my new love. I'm not saying I'm gonna find some random guy and say I love him, in fact, it could take years, and for all I know, it could be Spencer(he jinxed us the first time), but I'm not going to say he is the only one for me. Sure, my wounds are still fresh, and I still hurt by what happened, but now I have a positive outlook on the whole thing...